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A Letter To The Survivors, Bystanders, and Families of Parkland From A Trauma Therapist

I write this because I wholeheartedly care. I want to inform and prepare you so that besides honoring your loved ones and advocating in the passionate way you have been, that you take care of you.

A little background on myself, I’m trained and skilled in Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing (EMDR), an effective evidenced based treatment for trauma. I had the honor of doing crisis intervention with the American Red Cross after the tragedy at Sandy Hook Elementary School. I met with families who were grieving over the loss of their young children. I continue to work with trauma survivors with varied trauma experiences, level of coping, and process of healing. Many survivors and bystanders I worked with and currently treat are under public scrutiny and receive media attention because of the trauma they endure.

A lesson that continually gets reinforced for me is that even with being at the same place at the same time, that each person’s experience and perception of the situation is unique and distinct. Our biology, past experiences, level of social support, and many other factors, impact on the ability to cope and heal following a tragedy.

To put this into perspective, I recall meeting with a Sandy Hook family who shared an experience about attending a support group for grieving families. Even though well-intentioned, they experienced it as being retraumatizing, while other families found it helpful and supportive. This couple was put off and distressed by the anger and rage they confronted by some of the other families. They explained that they were still in a state of shock and needed calm, warmth, and to feel grounded and secure. This unhelpful experience “shook” them up and further made them feel isolated, invalidated, and lost.

Your Potential Reactions  

It’s hard to predict what your reaction to your experience may be and what if any stress reaction may get evoked. Sometimes with overwhelming or frightening experiences, people disassociate. You may have felt like you were in a dream or altered state, as if you were detached from your body. Some people refer to it as an “out of body experience.” As if the experience is happening to someone else. This can cause you to lose memories or a sense of the experience.

You may also feel irritable, sad, angry, anxious, shameful, regretful, helpless, or some other uncomfortable feelings. You may feel strong, empowered and driven. You may weave in and out of these feelings at different points in time or gravitate toward one feeling over the others. Depending on what you were directly exposed to and how this event personally affected you, may impact on how you feel. If you lost a loved one, you may be going through the stages of grief.  All people experience this differently. There are no right or wrong ways to feel.

Your perceptions regarding how you see yourself, others, and the world at large may be altered. You may question your feelings and wonder will I ever “feel safe again”, “stop crying”, “start crying”, or “feel normal.”

You may feel encouraged, and at other times discouraged. You may question whether you’ll ever feel hopeful and happy again, and whether you’ll ever feel in control. You may question who and what is deserving of your trust and feel “scared” or “damaged” because this happened to you.

You may wonder if you’re “going crazy”, and if you could ever relate to the average person again. You may find yourself getting impatient, frustrated, or angry over others reacting to “unimportant”, “petty”, and “inconsequential” things. You may also find yourself feeling lost or confused in your relationships and find yourself judging others general reactions. Thoughts such as “do they know what I have been through, why are they bothering me with this?” or “why do they have to get so upset by ___, is that’s what’s really important in life?” may surface.   

You may become easily startled and feel a heightened sense of worry and fear. You may also experience flashbacks of the incident. Distressing incidences from your past may also resurface. Your mind may continually replay what recently happened with thoughts about there being a different conclusion, what you could have done differently at the time, and what you wish were different for those around you.

Through pains or sensations, your body may be expressing how you’re feeling, whether you are verbally expressing it or not. If and when you’re ready, adults may want to read The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma, and teens may want to read The PTSD Workbook for Teens: Simple, Effective Skills for Healing Trauma, or The PTSD Survival Guide for Teens: Strategies to Overcome Trauma, Build Resilience, and Take Back Your Life. These books explain why your body reacts to stress and distress following a traumatic incident(s), and what you can do to heal your mind and body.

Know that all these thoughts, feelings, and bodily sensations vary from person to person and are natural and typical, considering all that you have just been through.

Being in the Public Eye

You and your community have been in the public eye because of what an epidemic this has become and because of the gun control, general school safety, and other causes that most of you courageously took on.

The general public is in awe of your bravery and unwavering resilience. This has been directly expressed in print and on social media; you have been highly praised for your incredible strength.

Directly because of this, you may feel that you can’t let the public down or that you must be courageous for loved ones. You may be fearful that you’ll be a burden and don’t want others to worry about you or have to take care of you. Because of this, you may continue being brave and carrying on, even if at times you don’t feel like it.

Societally happiness, courage, and perseverance are revered. We are taught to avoid, distract, and modify our negative or uncomfortable feelings or mood states because then we’re perceived as “weak” or “flawed.” You may feel an internal pull to be strong because it feels good or you may worry that if you’re not strong, something terrible will happen and you may “fall apart” or “lose it.”

You’re bravely taking on complicated, controversial, and emotionally charged causes. You’re making the effort because these are causes you feel dedicated to, inspired by, and ones you feel you can finally push the needle on and can make a significant difference. You may feel that others failed so now you must take on this heavy responsibility. At times you may find yourself exhausted because of the substantial effort you’re putting in and because of the purpose and meaning it holds for you.

You deserve safety and security, and to go about your daily life feeling reassured. You don’t always have to be strong. You can and are entitled to have vulnerable moments and to feel sad and dismayed during it all. Your humanness dictates that all thoughts and feelings are welcomed and there’s a place and space for them all.   


What makes this situation distinct is that you’re going through and processing the tragedy and/or loss in public. Typically, this is done in private, with respect for privacy. It may be destabilizing at times, especially when someone or something is imposing, criticizing, or accusatory toward you.

Examples of this may be the horrible accusations that the students were paid “crisis actors”, someone wanting to interview you at an inappropriate or inopportune time, a person who you haven’t had contact with for many years checking up on you, or a random stranger showing up at your house.

Some people may overtly overstep their boundaries. They may approach you when you don’t want to be approached (at the supermarket, at a sports event, etc.) or approach you in a way you don’t want to be approached (reach out to hug you, randomly text you, etc.). Some may want you to share details of your experiences and feelings with them irrespective of the emotional connection and level of comfort you share with them.

Whatever the case, you have the right for privacy, quiet time to reflect and process, and to set boundaries with others who may be making you feel uncomfortable by their actions and behaviors. Boundary setting and asking directly for what you need is inclusive with friends and loved ones as well.

Because of the closeness you share with friends and loved ones, you may feel more indebted to be compliant or be concerned about angering or hurting their feelings if you assert yourself. Be aware that your needs may change often, or there may be times that you’re not quite sure what it is that you specifically need or want. Most family and friends want to be helpful. By sharing with them, or letting them know where you’re at, they can be supportive in the way that you need them to be. It’s helpful for everyone.

Transitioning Back

Take time to heal at your own pace. Recognize when you need help and when you’re not able to manage things on your own. There are signs and symptoms such as difficulty sleeping or disruption in your daily activities that will indicate to you that you may need extra help. There are effective treatments that help with coping and healing. Even if you’re not perfectly sure if you need help, you could go for a consultation and get evaluated. There are referral sources that can assist you in finding the right fit with a practitioner.

You might be inclined to ignore, avoid, push away, or repress thoughts and feelings that come up because they scare you, are uncomfortable, or wish and hope they’ll lessen or disappear overtime. They typically do but it’s usually only temporarily. At some point in time, they may creep up with intensity, and sometimes when you least expect it to.

There’s great power in being with your authentic emotions. Take this on when you’re willing and ready to. There’s no prescribed way you should be thinking and feeling. Everyone experiences things differently. Considering all that’s going on for you, your thoughts and feelings may shift from moment to moment. That’s typical and okay. Allow yourself to be wherever you’re at.    

Notice if you compare and quantify your experiences with the experiences of others. What’s of primary importance is how this personally affected you. Neither you nor others deserved what happened. It’s a tragedy that’s hard for anyone to comprehend.

I love this quote from Helen Keller, “What we have once enjoyed deeply we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes part of us.” The memories you cherish and love you gave and received is infinite. It will always be with you and remain in your heart, now and forever.

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